i dig it when people are vulnerable and i like that some people feel comfortable around me enough to show me who they are. i, however, find it very difficult to be vulnerable. sure i’ve shared things with my friends but i keep a lot to myself. (hard to believe since i can talk for days). i wish i could be honest about everything but i find it easier to appease. for a little while, i got so fed up with just taking shit from everyone and everything that i said fuck it. i’m gonna say what i want when i want and do what ever i wanted. i soon found out that it wasn’t really going to go over well. when you do that it tends to hurt the people you care about (although at the moment you don’t care because its like you want to hurt them for hurting you) and i decided thats just something i couldn’t do. so now i’m back in this same place. so don’t mind me if i curse up a storm for what seems no reason, i just have a lot of pent up emotion. fuckers.